I've been going non stop since about 5:45 am. Granted the first hour was all me time, running, reading, and showering, but after that it was go time. Laundry. Cleaning out my closet, in search of a rat. Eew. I know. Gross. One more thing right? Vacuuming. Finding no rat. Dusting. Cleaning. Kids wake up. Breakfast. Clean up. Violin. Chores. More laundry. More kid care. Got them ready for the babysitter and swim lessons. Went to an appointment. Came back to a super messy house. Took Liv to a play date. Put Ruby down for nap. Did violin with Warner. cleaned up the super messy kitchen. Picked up Liv from play date. Came home. Started dinner/ washing/ vacuuming cars. Shouldn't multitask while grilling chicken. Burned the chicken. Stopped fights. Kissed owies. Kind of did a half hearted job of a million things at once. Ate dinner. Played with kids. Family night. Made cookies. Prayed. Sung songs. Bed. Catch up on email. Check facebook, instagram. Now post. It's been a full day. Here's the thing. I'm grateful for my life, but I just gotta say that it's kind of weird to work your butt off all day and then not be able to really tell a difference in your house. I mean there are spots where I can tell I worked here, I tidied here, but really it all seems like a blur and like you wouldn't tell that there was someone working in here all day. I often joke with Jaron that my job is to cover up evidence that people lived in this house today. Clean up spills. Wipe dirty faces. Clean up dishes. But you can't really tell the work was done, because you don't see the before and after. It's a wierd thing.
Not every day is like today, but sometimes chores just need to be done, so that other days you can go to a beach with friends or go swim, or just read a book.
But right now I'm actually happy. Glad that it was a nice day of work. Glad that I let Buster help me make the cookies, even though I wanted to just hurry, because it was already 8:30pm, and we hadn't even started Family Night. I'm glad I let the kids help me wash the car, even though collectively we all did kind of a cruddy job and forgot to wash the top of it completely, and even though Ruby rubbed the dirty soapy water all over her head and face, because she thinks buckets of water mean bath time.
I'm glad I got up early and was able to have time to myself to exercise and read, because it has been making a difference in how I feel.
I gotta be honest though, this summer has not been the easiest. My kids seem to be fighting more than ever and it's only the beginning of summer, but somehow it's good to know that tomorrow is a new day, and at the end of the day, even though they can be turkey's I love them with all my heart, and I would never give up what I have in my life. Ok maybe I'd give up laundry if I could afford to out source that, but the rest I would keep.
Happy Monday.